Every now and then life is complete bliss. I've been struggling to finish off my apprenticeship ever since I got pregnant two years ago and I JUST DID. I can't even.
I started working as an apprentice five years ago when I started secondary school and I ended up getting pregnant my third year in, even so I finished off the school part, and I took a break from the work part ever since I got pregnant. All the fumes and smoke are bad enough just being you in there, but having a baby inside you just makes you like "no. way." But this was something I had started and something I needed to finish. It was hard to go back after Lilly started kindergarten and I had days where I'd wake up feeling sick just because I didn't want to go, but things got easier.
Deep down I always knew they would, and that's what kept me going. And the promise to myself of something brilliant as a prize once I was done. Maybe mostly that.
I ordered the brilliant prize yesterday and I'm so excited for it to arrive. It's the most beautiful necklace I have ever seen, I once read a book about this girl and her necklace, it was described so beautifully and in the book everyone was after it, and I think that the necklace I'm waiting for should have its own book too. It is stunning. I will wear it and think of what I have accomplished, the strength of my willpower and last but not least, all the challenges that are to come (that once are overcome may allow me to buy matching earrings). Meow, bliss.
Monday 30 June 2014
Friday 28 March 2014
"Be the kind of person you would like to meet"
I stumbled across this quote. I don't know who it came from, it was just printed with plain words, but it reached out and spoke to me. "Be the kind of person you would like to meet".
They are just simple words, but they made me stop what I was doing (lol nothing) and think "what would that person be like?". The next thing I thought was "beautiful", my thoughts were instantly affected by the stunning girl I saw photos of just after.
She was very beautiful. One of those typical girls you see everywhere on the internet these days, one of the incredibly breath taking, gorgeously beautiful girls, with beauty and talent and richness flowing from her like she was the sun. And that was my honest immediate first thought of answer after the question, "beautiful".
A few pauses after I made up my mind that it shouldn't matter what she looked like, I couldn't know if she was the kind of person I would want to meet based on her beauty. And beauty is overrated. I don't want to be beautiful on the outside and empty on the inside, I pity the people without inner beauty. I pity those who believe beauty is it, the most important thing and the thing that justifies utterly absurd and horrid behaviour towards strangers and loved ones. I pity those who don't realize that we all have beauty, each and everyone of us.
"Be the kind of person you would like to meet". For me, that person is someone who has found enough peace with themselves to open the eyes of others to how beautiful they are.
But there's more to the person I would like to be.
I would like to be good, kind like my mother, unlimited of caring for others, always putting them ahead of herself in such a balanced and healthy way that she never (seems to) forget herself in spite of it all. I'd like to meet the patience she has when listening to my rants through Skype and the way she senses to give me space when I need it but is always there for me too, at the same time.
I would like to mirror my fiancé, strong, never afraid of anything. I would like to have the same "ease" glowing from myself as he does, the kind that never flickers even though things are hard. I would like to have the same beauty and comfort in my smile as he does in his.
I want to be a source of happiness, the way my mother, fiancé and so many others are to me.
From now on I'm going to try to be the kind of person I would like to meet. Happy, good, kind, never boring, honest and reliable. It can only better me to try.
And so, I ask you, what kind of person would you like to be?
They are just simple words, but they made me stop what I was doing (lol nothing) and think "what would that person be like?". The next thing I thought was "beautiful", my thoughts were instantly affected by the stunning girl I saw photos of just after.
She was very beautiful. One of those typical girls you see everywhere on the internet these days, one of the incredibly breath taking, gorgeously beautiful girls, with beauty and talent and richness flowing from her like she was the sun. And that was my honest immediate first thought of answer after the question, "beautiful".
A few pauses after I made up my mind that it shouldn't matter what she looked like, I couldn't know if she was the kind of person I would want to meet based on her beauty. And beauty is overrated. I don't want to be beautiful on the outside and empty on the inside, I pity the people without inner beauty. I pity those who believe beauty is it, the most important thing and the thing that justifies utterly absurd and horrid behaviour towards strangers and loved ones. I pity those who don't realize that we all have beauty, each and everyone of us.
"Be the kind of person you would like to meet". For me, that person is someone who has found enough peace with themselves to open the eyes of others to how beautiful they are.
But there's more to the person I would like to be.
I would like to be good, kind like my mother, unlimited of caring for others, always putting them ahead of herself in such a balanced and healthy way that she never (seems to) forget herself in spite of it all. I'd like to meet the patience she has when listening to my rants through Skype and the way she senses to give me space when I need it but is always there for me too, at the same time.
I would like to mirror my fiancé, strong, never afraid of anything. I would like to have the same "ease" glowing from myself as he does, the kind that never flickers even though things are hard. I would like to have the same beauty and comfort in my smile as he does in his.
I want to be a source of happiness, the way my mother, fiancé and so many others are to me.
From now on I'm going to try to be the kind of person I would like to meet. Happy, good, kind, never boring, honest and reliable. It can only better me to try.
And so, I ask you, what kind of person would you like to be?
Tuesday 25 March 2014
Guilty Pleasures
We all have one..... or two, or a million.
One of my guilty pleasures is watching "The Real Housewives Of Beverly Hills", I absolutely love it, it's completely high school and ridiculous but I am so into it, haha I'll start watching it after my daughter is in bed and I will put on a new episode, and another one, and another one...... It's so ridiculous but I love it, and if you're like my fiancé, having never seen it but set on the fact that it's such a waste of time I am telling you you're wroooooooong!! Give it a shot, it will suck you in, so beware.
*guiltyhappyface*
AAAAArgh I love it!
One of my guilty pleasures is watching "The Real Housewives Of Beverly Hills", I absolutely love it, it's completely high school and ridiculous but I am so into it, haha I'll start watching it after my daughter is in bed and I will put on a new episode, and another one, and another one...... It's so ridiculous but I love it, and if you're like my fiancé, having never seen it but set on the fact that it's such a waste of time I am telling you you're wroooooooong!! Give it a shot, it will suck you in, so beware.
As I'm already talking about guilty pleasures, I melt myself a little snack as I watch the episodes.... I've heard the calories disappear as you melt things, so when I think about it, it's not really a guilty pleasure after all is it? Just a pleasure teehee <3<3<3<3
*guiltyhappyface*
AAAAArgh I love it!
Breathe in, breathe out.
Inhale
After becoming a mom, no actually, after my daughter started to walk haha, and after Silviu started to work away - only coming home on weekends, things got a little busy for me! I should be at work today, but my daughter got a fever on Sunday night, and she has still got it, so I am at home with her, I've just woken up, dressed, brushed my teeth, done my morning skin care routine and here I am in this big empty quiet house all alone until my angel decides it's time to rise. Aloooone.
At first I wasn't sure what to do, because this is very unusual, I was just hoping I could get my skincare routine done in time for her to wake up.
The house is amazingly clean thanks to my step dad who came to visit us this weekend and even if it did look its usual self (as if a bomb went off) I wouldn't be spending this alone time cleaning.
I am doing chill therapy, blogging, as I have the time to, gosh this really relaxes me and I ought to do it more often.
It lets me breathe in, and breathe out.
Exhale
Tuesday 18 February 2014
Weekends
It's Tuesday and the weekend high has definitely worn off. I'm back to my everyday routines and as I have time for nothing else but everyday routines (not even nails.....) I thought I'd give you a peek into an everyday kind of day for me.
05:15 - Last chance to get up
06:10 - Start drive
06:30 - Reach kindergarten
06:50 - Reach work
07:00 - Start work
15:00 - End work
15:15 - Leave work
16:00 - Get home and make dinner
17:30 / 18:30 (depending on how tired she is) - Bedtime for the little one :*
20:30 - Bedtime for me *yolo*
It's not really like weekend routines are any different, just the work part is, and Lilly sleeps about an hour more than on week days. But weekends are weekends and nothing will ever compare.
Lilly is in bed now and Silviu is at work, aah the poor guy, he worked overtime all of last week, and now this week too, I think it's pretty sad, because he only sees Lilly from 05:45 to 06:10 in the morning, he doesn't come home before 19:30, not to mention how tiring it is to work a 12 hour shift five days a week, and yet he never ever complains. I do, sometimes, but only because I crazy-miss him and that kind of justifies it ... right ?
Overtime weekdays are difficult, the afternoons pass before I've even blinked twice, when the evening comes the exhaustion follows and I am ready for bed before Silviu is even home. *sigh*
I love the weekends because there is a break from the working part, in a typical weekend we will all be happy all day and all night long, Silviu will make Lilly pancakes and she will be running happily around the house with her Adidas shoes on, we will go for a walk or a drive or just build lego at home and make a fabulous dinner (that part is all Silviu), we'll cuddle and watch a movie together before bed and just be happy.
If weekends didn't exist I think I'd lose my marbles teehee <3
05:15 - Last chance to get up
06:10 - Start drive
06:30 - Reach kindergarten
06:50 - Reach work
07:00 - Start work
15:00 - End work
15:15 - Leave work
16:00 - Get home and make dinner
17:30 / 18:30 (depending on how tired she is) - Bedtime for the little one :*
20:30 - Bedtime for me *yolo*
It's not really like weekend routines are any different, just the work part is, and Lilly sleeps about an hour more than on week days. But weekends are weekends and nothing will ever compare.
Lilly is in bed now and Silviu is at work, aah the poor guy, he worked overtime all of last week, and now this week too, I think it's pretty sad, because he only sees Lilly from 05:45 to 06:10 in the morning, he doesn't come home before 19:30, not to mention how tiring it is to work a 12 hour shift five days a week, and yet he never ever complains. I do, sometimes, but only because I crazy-miss him and that kind of justifies it ... right ?
Overtime weekdays are difficult, the afternoons pass before I've even blinked twice, when the evening comes the exhaustion follows and I am ready for bed before Silviu is even home. *sigh*
I love the weekends because there is a break from the working part, in a typical weekend we will all be happy all day and all night long, Silviu will make Lilly pancakes and she will be running happily around the house with her Adidas shoes on, we will go for a walk or a drive or just build lego at home and make a fabulous dinner (that part is all Silviu), we'll cuddle and watch a movie together before bed and just be happy.
If weekends didn't exist I think I'd lose my marbles teehee <3
Friday 14 February 2014
Bridezilla?
Time is just ticking away. Really fast. I haven't been on the blog since beginning of February and I've missed it. I've been so busy these last few weeks, we've set a date for the wedding, I've picked my dress, and my maid of honour, we're looking for a venue, I need to make and send out invitations, make a menu, design the theme, finish the guest list (!)
Gosh there's a lot to do, and also, I have to focus all my energy on growing out my bangs as soon as possible. Because of course I went to get my hair cut, and of couuuuurse I wanted bangs. I wasn't thinking about how I'm supposed to get married in the summer and you can bet I wanted to cry when my fiancé said "Aww, you're going to get married with bangs, I love bangs<3<3<3". At least he likes them but seriously howstupidcanyoumuttering. Yep so there's that.
There's still 6 months to go, but I'm manic stressing already. I'm going to lose it. Is this what a bridezilla is?
Oooh dear.
Gosh there's a lot to do, and also, I have to focus all my energy on growing out my bangs as soon as possible. Because of course I went to get my hair cut, and of couuuuurse I wanted bangs. I wasn't thinking about how I'm supposed to get married in the summer and you can bet I wanted to cry when my fiancé said "Aww, you're going to get married with bangs, I love bangs<3<3<3". At least he likes them but seriously howstupidcanyoumuttering. Yep so there's that.
There's still 6 months to go, but I'm manic stressing already. I'm going to lose it. Is this what a bridezilla is?
Oooh dear.
Wednesday 29 January 2014
Ribbon nail look
A day later than promised, but sometimes, in this case late is better than never. Sometimes not. Anyway, I ordered some nail deco from eBay the other day and not so long ago I picked them from my mail box.
Get it? They look pretty weird, but they are ribbons!
Hard to put on, but it looks awesome when it's done :-)
The looks is simple to do, all you have to do is pick a colour, pick a ribbon and top it all with the top coat of your choice :-)
Get it? They look pretty weird, but they are ribbons!
Hard to put on, but it looks awesome when it's done :-)
The looks is simple to do, all you have to do is pick a colour, pick a ribbon and top it all with the top coat of your choice :-)
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